happy birthday to me

I LOVE ASHLEY

So my journal is now going to be Friends Only ... every entry after this one... and if someone has something to say about me in a comment... leave a name.. ugh retards..

I am too skinny????

So tomarrow is Mudvayne... I am soo excited. I am leaving work early. I don't care what my boss says. I am leaving at 6... like it or not.. So in the NBA playoffs San Antonio is 2-1. Two more games and thoose bitches are going to win. YAYAYAYAYA. They are going to win the finals. I am excited. I dunno why. Welll that is all. TA TA

♥ Heather

My week was horrible. I was utterly depressed. It is a very long story and I don't want to go into it. I've learned something this week.
1) Dont bite off more than you can chew.
2) Don't think that your best friend would be better as your boyfriend
3) If you have something to say to a person you should say it because they are probably unaware of how you are feeling

With that said I am done. Hope to see a bunches of people @ Mudvayne
I AM GOING TO MUDVAYNE BITCHES!!!!!!!
YAY!!!!!

I am soo selfish. I didn't think of all the bad things about it. I am glad he cares so much about our relationship to know what will fuck it up and what won't. It made me utterly sad that we can't be together but now I know I can move on a be with someone else if I choose. He is the only person who can make me cry and cry and I love more than I did before. Richard is my bestest guy friend for life. I ♥ him sooo much.

Well other than that I didn't go to school today. I woke up with the worst headache and the cold sweats. I am feeling better now. I'll more than likely go to school tomarrow. I don't want to but I will. I got 4 C's, 2 B's, and 1 A on my Report Card. EGH my grades suck. I need to raise them bad. Well that is all. tata

I got the Mudvayne cd "The End of All Things to Come" on dual disk today. It is awesome. I hung out with Richard all day. Man do I ♥ that kid. We watched Bondock Saints. That movie is PIMP. I didn't get my report card so I don't know what I got. Hopefully it is good. My daddy has high cholestoral. It makes me sad. I don't want my daddy to die early. My world would come to an end. I love my father more than any other person in this entire world. I told him to run on the tread mill more. It will help him a lot. I can't believe I don't have more to say. My sister graduates in a month and a half. Damn time sure does fly. I ♥ my sissy. She is getting so big... too bad I am taller. HAAAA. lol. Well that is all I guess.

rarw face... Diego if you are reading this... HI!!!!!!!!!!!

School is getting lame I want it to be over. I am soo tired of dealing with Mike W. Problems he can fuck off. Well Larry and I are really good friends which makes me happy. I ♥ having friends. Miss Mary I miss you also and haven't seen you in forever. We should make a date. OO I dyed my hair again. it is way blonde but i love it. I am getting it cut this week. I ♥ gettting my hair cut. When I get it cut I will of course put pictures. I am kinda happy that I am not in a relationship right now even though I kinda like being in one. I want a meaningful one that is comfortable for the both of us and feels awesome. I want an awesome relationship. lol. ta ta

XhardestXcorestX: I love you richard
XhardestXcorestX: times 80 million
DicktheMick9709: yeah
DicktheMick9709: I love me too
XhardestXcorestX: Fucker
XhardestXcorestX: Your soo cool but not as cool as me
XhardestXcorestX: Hahah but almost
DicktheMick9709: We will make babies that are uber cool
XhardestXcorestX: You’re my husband for life


ohh yea my screen name is XhardestXcorestX

ppppppssssss ash that was fuuny she isnt a pussy she said whom she was

I mother f'in ♥ bydeathsdesign.
I f'in hate Taco Bell.
I hate drunk people with throw up all over them who yell weird stuff
Larry and Steven are super cool kids.
Ashley is the bestest person in the entire world.
Drama is lame.
Pussies are people who anonymously comment in peoples journals and don't leave a name.
It is funny how people will post shit anonymously and not put there names.
Are you scared of me????
tee hee 8 more weeks of school!!!!!!!!

OK So the Friday spring break started this guy came in with his friend. So my immediate though was wow his friend is hot. His friend was one of theese shy kids. But the guyu #1 we shall call him was very open and not shy. So I was like OK. Well then guy #1 trys on a pink shirt. He comes out of the fitting room and asks. Does this look good? So I answer like how I always do.. hot. OK well so the guys come up to the register and guy #1 is paying for his shirts. So he pays with a bank card and I dont read his age just his name. So now his name is Larry. So I ask them why there hot topic bags are inside out and Larry explains to me the store is trendy. So I ask "Is that why you shop there?" He giggles. Well then they leave. So Adam the kid I work with comes down stairs from break and I am telling him about thesse guys. Then all of a sudden guess who walks backk into the store. Larry. So I turn bright red. He says, "and girl who thinks I look good in pink is cool enough to hang out with me. here is my number." So I smile and say thanks. Ok so I wait till Thursday to call him. Acculy I don't call him Ashley does and pretends to be me and gives him my number. The reason I didn't call him was well because I automatticly wasn't attracted to him. But Ashley called and I decided well Ok now I have to give him a chance. So after about a day of phone tag we finally talk. After talking to him for 20 minutes I was like omg if I didn't call you I would've been the stupidest person ever. He is the funniest person I have ever met. We have a lot in common and he basicly just an all around good person. Well here is the delima. He is 21 and I am 16. The even bigger thing is he is a Subsatuite teacher and I am a student. We joke about it constantly. But we realize now that nothing can happen.So he comes and hangs out with me at work all the time on his way home from school because I get easily bored and I love seeing him. Well yesterday he comes in and we hang out for my lunch break. He brings his friend that I found attractive at first. After getting to know Larry and his friend whom is named Steven. I realized that looks aren't everything. Personality is. But I've noticed the more I hang out with Larry the more atrractive he becomes. hmm I don't know if that is good or bad. hmm. But anywho. He is seriously a wonderful person. I just don't want anything to mess up between us. That would suck. But anywho. Ashley and I went to Cheap Trick. It was awesome. They didn't play that long but it was good. Hey Ashley DID YOU LIKE CHEAP TRICK???? HUH DID YOU HUH HUH. tee hee ♥

So yea. I ams till grounded. I am OK though. Joseph came over on Tuesday. He met my step dad. He was also wearing his glasses instead of contacts and can we say he is the cutest thing ever. OO this has nothing to do with anything but why is everyone turining "hardcore"? hmm Ashley is over. I have to work today so she goes back home. Well um I think that is all because I can't think of anything else.

So yeah. I made my parents mad so I am grounded. ERG. What I did? I forgot to tell them I was going to Joseph's band practice. hmm o well. My parents are mad but aren't. My dad is buying me a Bronco. Joseph and I hooked up. On Monday. He came over when I was home alone. He makes me feel special. He doesn't want a commitment and I am fine. He also came over Wednesday when I was home by myself again. He held me. I loved that more than anything. I got grounded Tuesday. But yea. This guy gave me his phone number at work yesterday. It was embarassing. Adam said I turned bright red. I would've had to work today but Adam told me to take today off and I work for him Tuesday. I don't mind. OO Adam is my co-worker. He goes to my school. He is awesome. But anyways. O I got a raise already. So I make seven an hour. It has acculy been in effect since I started working. NICE. I am happy. So in three months I will move from seven to seven twenty-five. WOW. I can pay my insurance. When I go get my license. I am scared to get it. hmm. Oh yea I also have the worlds worst cramps. Damn menstral cycle. :[

♥ Heather

um mo stuff .. crystal is in them all.. well kinda





Ashley is going to be busy at this one

I didn't get to go to the bydeathsdesign show..... I am the worlds saddest kid. Work is sooo long. My feet hurt. I get like no sleep. I have a new friend. His name is Joseph. He is soo hott. He comes over everyday. He makes my day!!!

-The Great Below-
Extremely sensitive, you are still waiting for that
one love to either return or come into your
life for the first time. You know deep down
that you're going to end up getting hurt again,
but you're still hopeful.


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Zach came over yesterday.. he is soo cool... we went and bothered Jon at Blockbuster and he said later that night to me Zach and I look cute together and it would work....I am highly considering it.